crushes are stupid

crushes are indeed stupid. ever. bakit ba ganun.. pag in-crush ka.. parang feel na feel mo talaga yung kilig.. lahat sa taong yun ay "perfect" sort of anyway.. like everything about that person is cute and amusing and funny and everything positive.. tapos nakakarelate ka pa sa taong yun that makes you feel even more kilig.. then pag friends kayo kilig ka din super sobra sa kakulitan nya.. and then it climaxes.. ung kilig ah.. and then mawawala.. ang dating cute and amusing nakakainis na.. d n sya cute.. parang nag-iba na sya..

basta crushes are stupid! they're not practical in any way, shape or form. it's just feeling and emotion na sobrang irrational lang.. it just doesn't make any sense at all..

yun lang random thought.. yeah yeah na in-crush ako for a while.. STUPID SOBRA! so pinagisipan ko yung mga ibang na-in-crush ko.. grabe.. lahat tlga stupid.. parang ngyn na naiisip ko na, d ko maisip kng pano ko ba naging crush yung taong yun...

ay basta..

so mommy.. ayan na.. d na secret ah.. :P hahahaha

weird ba na alam ko na ung mommy ko binabasa blog ko? comments naman o.. personally i think it's okay.. like i wouldn't really put anything on this blog na d ko naman masasabi sa mommy ko.. not like i would have any.. para clean db? not like dirty naman me or what.. hay ano ba tong sinasabi ko! whahahahaha :P

yun na.. wla na akong masabi..

feeling better Ü

yes i am feeling tons better.. no more fever.. pero meron pa ring sipon sipon.. waa.. kakainis.. hehe pero okay lng..

good news! it's a three day weekend! :) wheeeeeeee! saya saya wlang pasok bukas! hahaha pero ewan ko rin kng anong gagawin ko buong araw eh.. hayy..

so un lang.. wla lang akong masabi.. hahaha.. sana kng pwede lang eh.. meron akong sasabihin eh.. pero binabasa ni mommy ung blog ko eh kaya wag na lang .. hahaha :D bsta yun.. ask me about it na lang kng meron kayong time... ha ha ha pero depende dn kng gsto kong sagutin o hinde.. hahaha

uhh wla na! :) i'm really excited to volunteer!

ugh...

just to augment yesterday's post... i am so sick... i have a fever.. argh.. and yet i went to all my classes today.. i had the chills yesterday as in, super shivering all over.. so i turn on the heater then super init naman.. today i felt "the burn" as in super heated ng feeling.. kht na malamig lamig sa labas.. nka sweater lang ako and manipis na shirt.. even wore an unwired bra.. haha para lang malamigan.. pagdating sa classroom, PINAWISAN PA RIN AKO! argh.. i feel so awful and horrible.. and to top it all off, my "visitor" came.. if you know what i mean.. argh. kakainis!!! ang timing talaga.. and today i have choir too that i can't really miss ksi mahirap ung music na inaaral namin.. haayy so i'm going in like an hour or so.. takot lang ako na baka mahimatay lang ako or something.. un lang ang takot ko..

i don't have much happy stuff to report on today.. coz i feel terrible and parts hurt.. argh.. i need some TLC.. like at home, TV(!) would be what i would be doing.. and just lying down on my bed, curled up, and the aircon would be on.. hahaha.. tapos inaakyat sa akin ung food.. (!) pampered ba sobra? hahaha senorita ang dating.. whahaha :P

ngerk.. so un lang.. sana gumaling na akooooo....

may sakit may sakit sa ilalim ng tulay..

... yeah.. i'm sick.. again.. argh.. start and end ng quarter lagi nagkakasakit ang mga tao.. hahaha kakaewan.. ngrrrrrrr... i keep sneezing.. ayun..

i went to the orientation for my volunteer work thingy! :D nawala lang nga ako.. i got off the wrong bus stop.. ksi takot akong mawala.. haha so napaaga ang baba ko.. tuloy.. i had to walk 30 mins! as is.. 10 freakin blocks.. arrgghh... kakahiya.. so late ako by 30 minutes... haha pero ok lang naman daw.. i'm excited to go do stuff there. their programs are so cool and mukhang mabait naman ung mga kids :) hehehe sana lang nga tanggap dn nila ako! hahaha

i keep on hmmm-ing and uhmm-ing pag nagbblog.. wla lang ksi tlga akong maisip eh..

hmm.. (see!) i want to be updated dyan sa pinas.. alam kong puro school ang inaatupag nyo dyan.. hahaha pero sana naman eh.. haha kausapin nyo naman ako minsan..

i had beef sinigang sa filipino place knina for lunch.. nakakamiss ang mga sabaw na clear broth.. hmm.. ano kya kng magsoup n lng ako araw-araw.. papayat kya ako? or subway everyday? or something! ksi kng salad lang d ko kaya ksi.. salad wlang lasa.. d ko take na dahon lang ang kinakain! db? dahon nga! imagine nyo nga.. dahon everyday.. ewww db?

ay naisip ko ang choir! :D hehe ung choir dito i mean.. grabe dumami ung guys.. and kakatuwa pa rin ung mga tenor.. i think medyo marami sa kanila bago maybe.. e ung knakanta namin classical.. as in Johannes Brahms.. so haha abot cla ng mga A, G, F, etc.. kakatuwa.. and as usual, ganda pa rin ng sound ng bass..

pero yeah, naisip ko ngayn ang choir! choir dyan i mean.. haha miss ko na sila.. :( mas bonding dyan eh kaysa dito.. hehehe

**only 9 weeks to go till spring break!**

so anyway...

i realize i haven't been posting too much here.. minsan kasi nakakatamad lang.. haha pero i try my best..

yeah.. school started already and it's been a week na.. i'm uhh.. enjoying my classes so-so.. i'm going to do volunteer work as part of a class! i'm excited coz it's working with kids.. (ops.. wlang kukurap!) hehe i already mentioned that i'm taking history of jazz.. but i didn't mention the type of homework.. aside from reading.. i get to LISTEN TO MUSIC as homework! yay! :)

so i'm also taking women's studies right.. i don't get why people associate it with being feminista.. it's not much different as learning about.. say, indigenous people, or math, or anything else. it's a subject, an issue, something that has impacted the world a lot. it makes us all understand it more. and it is sad that more women than men are taking it. coz it's really not only about women.. as the prof said.. it's about freedom from oppression of any kind. about age, class, sex, race, etc. and if it were about women only, why would women need to know about themselves ANYWAY.. it's the men that should be educated about these things. but as i said, it's not about that..

**after a long while..**

oops.. di pa pala tapos to.. hahaha

uhh.. ano pa ba..? wla naman.. haha i love pillows.. if anyone were to give me a gift and didn't know what to get me, a pillow is your best bet.. or a bag.. pwede rin.. pero mas ok pag unan.. miss ko na ung body pillow ko sa bahay.. hahaha.. and ung iba ko pang pillows.. esp ung tweety pillow ko.. nakarating un sa alaska nh! :P

oh more new news.. uhm.. we redecorated our room.. bunk beds na kami (shempre ako sa ilalim ksi takot ako..) pero binaba namin ng konti ung bed ko kaya parang may headroom na ako.. tapos ung bed cover na di naman ginagamit inipit sa kama ni rosie kaya parang meron na akong curtain! yay.. tapos ung bedframe, merong space so may butas para sa laptop ko on my desk ksi katabi lang ng kama ung desk and so nakaupo ako sa kama habang nagttype! haha super comfy.. and we strung lights sa ceiling on one side.. paper lantern lights.. and there's the big one that rosie gave me on my side. :) nakasabit din shempre.. so now meron nang big space sa side where rosie's bed used to be.. hahanap nga kmi ng beanbag ksi ayaw namang gumastos ni rosie ehh.. so try humiram.. tho i doubt na merong magpapahiram.. kayo.. gsto nyo bang magpahiram? :D

hmm.. i'm tired na and i'm not yet done with homework.. AS USUAL.. hahahaha.. and i still want to watch the oc ep 7 ! so un.. cnong nanonood? !!! wla lang.. chikahin nyo naman ako.. wla sa mga ka-"berks" ko dto nanonood ehh.. hayyy... :(

we ate filipino food last night.. yep yep.. found a filipino food place near here.. :) i had ADOBO! waaaahh saya saya.. pero medyo ibang klase sa hinahanap ko pero pwede na din.. hehehe.. other stuff ordered.. tapsilog.. (GARLIC RICE (omg! miss ko na sobra!!)) miki guisado and bihon guisado.. and pancit malabon.. which they said was like spaghetti and meatballs.. hahah ewan.. tapos nag lumpia shanghai din kmi.. yum.. and halo halo.. not that i'm complaining but medyo nadisappoint ako sa halo halo.. ang laman lang e kaong(ata?), nata de coco, macapuno, ice cream, pinipig, ice and gatas.. yun lang.. tps wla pang ube ice cream.. mango pa.. kainis! meron ngang queso ice cream.. pero d naman un click sa halohalo eh so hindi ko in-order.. pero lahat sila naweirdohan sa cheese ice cream.. sarap naman ahh.. hahah so anyway, nadisappoint ako ksi lahat ng dapat meron sa halohalo wla.. like.. ube, beans, sago, gulaman, leche flan, langka, saba, etc. etc. d ko na maalala ung iba..

ano nga ba ang tagalog ng beans.. or peanuts? ayun! mani! bwiset.. kala ko nakalimutan ko na! ung beans na lang.. haha wala talaga.. argh..

o, yan na.. haba na.. hahaha SNOW! Ü yeah.. gnun na kalamig.. lamig lamig lamig.. wheeeeeee.. excited na akong magjune para uwi na ako.. para mainit na! hahaha pawis pawis.. ligo ligo.. pawis pawis ulit.. wahhahaha :P paypay.. aircon.. kotse.. aircon.. malling.. aircon.. cine.. aircon.. picture picture.. aircon.. barkada.. aircon.. pamilya.. aircon.. siomai.. aircon.. squidball.. aircon.. paksiw.. aircon.. basta.. yun.. gets nyo naman diba? iba naman ksi ang sobrang lamig tska aircon nh! d yan weird! :P

last na talaga to! hmm.. sabihin ko ba? binabasa kasi to ni mommy eh.. hahaha hala! tatawag na yan para tanungin.. delete... delete.. delete... teka, wla naman akong sinulat eh.. hahaha so never mind.. wheeeeeeeeeee :P tc sa init y'all.. nyaknyaknyak

ishnow!!!! Ü

early in the week we were hoping for snow. i mean, it was pretty cold monday and tuesday and wednesday.. it said in the news na magssnow nga sa weekend.. i even got an email from church na magccancel ang service kng nagsnow nga sa sunday.. pero nung thursday, medyo gumanda ang panahon... meaning no snow for the weekend.. so weekend comes.. friday, fellowship.. while driving home at like 11pm, pert (my friend who drove me home) peers at the windshield.. "isn't that ice?" pero wala namang snow.. saturday.. rosie and i did a few errands.. she said that the sky all around us looked like "snow clouds" - heavy and yellow. that day was also "girls night out" ksi ung dlwang friend namin na guys parehong umuwi.. we watched "quills" starring kate winslet and geoffrey rush.. good movie yet very disturbing.. it's rated R btw... coming back to terry at around 2, i was like.. ugh.. gotta wake up tomorrow for church.. 6 hours of sleep yay. but then.. at 7am.. ginising ako ni rosie.. "jackie.. wake up.. it's snowing!" and indeed it was snowing.. i took a bunch of pictures.. hehe but it was really dark and the street was illuminated only by the streetlights so the pictures have a sepia "feel".. i woke up at a quarter to 9.. took even MORE pictures of snow! it was so pretty.. it was still snowing and it was really white.. pretty.. then i checked my email.. no chuch service.. so.. back to sleep for me.. woke up at like 130... hahaha.. so un.. MY FIRST TIME EVER TO SEE SNOW FALL!!!!!!!! ÜÜÜ finally..