ho hum..

it's 1230mn here.. and i have church tomorrow.. but what the heck.. basta sana magising ako bukas..

i want to rant..

kakainis kanina! stupid viruses! bakit ba kasi merong such a thing!? kakainis!!!!!!!! hayy.. sayang ang paggising ko ng 6AM! bwiset.. nasayang pa text ko.. and ung isang call ko kasi sinagot ung tawag ko.. sori na lang les kng nabawasan ka din ng load... promise bilhan kita callcard pagbalik ko dyan..

hayy... lonely ang saturday ko... i woke up at 6 nga then i waited online for the people.. pero wla so mga 9am i slept again, waking up at around.. 1.. i think.. so anyway, i took a shower and tinamad akong bumaba for lunch kaht na gutom na gutom na ako.. so i tried to do hw..

i looked for plays for drama.. we have to do a 2-3 minute, 2 person scene.. scary.. pero we have to find the scene ourselves and READ THE ENTIRE SCRIPT TOO!!! sayang oras.. so hanap ako sa isang database using the library link sa UW homepage.. that's what i like here.. everything is so accessible! :D so un.. i read 3 shooting scripts (i think) including City of Angels! corny pala ung storyline.. pero parang cool na di makita ni meg ryan si nicholas cage.. haha pero d ko nagets kng paano nalaman ni meg ryan na ANGEL sya.. malay ba nya na Demonyo sya, or Ghost, or Time Traveller, or.. kng ano pa! db? ewan.. maybe i just didn't notice that part or what.. basta ayaw ko nang ulitin.. ang hahaba! pero interesting.. kakatuwa magbasa ng script.. :D hehehe

tapos nun, mga 7pm bumaba ako para kumain ksi super tomguts na ako.. i had a lovely caesar chicken salad wrap.. sarap.. kahit na merong tomatoes.. then nagbasa pa ng mga script 'til 10pm then played INSANIQUARIUM! :D heehee until nagblog ako.. hehe

nga pala.. lonely ang weekend ko ksi my roommate went home.. :( loner tlga ako..

oo nga.. i was thinking abt this.. kng bakit ako nagkakaganito..

kng tatanungin mo ang ibang may kilala sa akin.. HINDI nila sasabihin na shy, tahimik, or introverted ako.. i've been told to be dominating, directing, bossy, etc etc etc. baliw(?) eh ngyn.. parang nagiging gnun na ako.. i don't know if dahil bago environment ko, or dahil wla pa akong ka-close, OR because i've made myself believe i was those things because i didn't want to be bossy or dominating etc etc etc.. ayaw ko nang maging agaw pansin.. i don't want to be rude.. i don't want to be at fault if something goes wrong.. maybe i've become fed up of bing responsible all the time, of being the planner all the time, the one who makes sure everything goes right and if it doesn't, the one who feels guilty of letting other people down.. somewhere along the way i didn't want to be the leader anymore but the follower.. maybe it started because of that personality test nung 4th year.. remember that? ung merong 4 na letter..? i was introverted daw.. and SOMEONE (i still know who this is pero ayaw ko nang banggitin..) asked me kng ano daw ako and when i said it, s/he said, "ANO?! IKAW?! introvert?! no way" or something to that effect.. sort of savingly, sbi ni sir menguin na hindi naman necessarily "SHY" ang meaning ng Introvert; it could just mean that i like spending time alone rather than with other people..

so does this mean that i'm not really a people person? what happened to the little (was i ever little? hahaha) girl na nakapanalo ng "most friendly" award? ung parang teachers pet.. (wahaha) ung headstrong na kid na nakakapagusap sa mga bata't matatanda? i guess im not really a people person.. not anymore anyway..

napansin ko lang na jumpy ung last two paragraph.. basta ung point ko lang ay na-feel ko na nag-iba ako over the past few years.. and it's affecting me now here sa aking pagggawa ng bagong friendships.. i'm such a loner.. :(

cge i'd better sleep na.. i'll post more regularly next time.. and ung pix ng school din! promise! :D

oh yeah.. padagdag lang.. i had a pleasant suprise today.. tumawag ung cuz ko from KY! :D ala lang.. excited na akong makita sila sa december.. edgar's like, 6 footer na! and he has a really low voice na.. sabi nya nagka-sore throat daw siya one time tapos nun, d n nya kayang humiyaw.. haha PAULA! nakakrelate ka ba? whahaha :D joke lang.. :P